It has been a long time since I permitted myself to ramble
instinctively. And truthfully. Without having to obfuscate the sentences so as
to abstractify the content. I don't remember when I stopped
writing for myself. Well, I still do, but I write for the superficial self, not
the subconscious one. Actually, I barely write at all. Just dragging it along,
with a post a month, just to convince myself that it is not dead, as yet.
Barely holding onto the innate ability to spew out typed words without having to
consider them rationally. That is a contradiction, right. If it is an innate
ability, I don't have to try hold on to it. It is not going to disappear. But
then, how can you be sure? What if it does? What if you sit down one day and
realise you have been left bereft? What would you do then? Read books, any
books, well written books, books in which words are sewn together in such
fascinating ways as to arouse both joy and awe symbiotically? Read them all
with the prayer that some such magic spawned by someone will unearth that
buried aptitude to just let the words flow and semantics emerge without having
to create them.
I always did believe, that real art is not created by the
artist. It is not made through a lot of deliberation and holding a conference
in the mind. It is actually, just uncovered by him, or her. The artist would
not be able to say how and why it came about. It just did. He was fortunate
enough to discover it and present it to us. Or she. The best artists are mere
couriers.
Isn't it exasperating that English, despite all these years
of evolution and assimilation of languages from around the world, has still not
managed to provide us with a gender-less third person singular pronoun?
Seriously, how hard can it be. A small collection of some three-four letters,
perhaps only one of which would be a vowel, would save us from the danger of
appearing sexist by using just 'he' or pedantic by using 'he/she'. And of
course, also protect us from appearing as if trying too hard to be different,
by using just 'she'. I would suggest 'ghe'. Not too hard to pronounce, yet the
sound is distinctive enough to avoid any confusion with 'he', 'she', or 'we'.
Do you ever look back and wonder how far we have come? Do
you turn around and ask yourself, how did I jump over that fence? When did I
run cross that farm? How come I didn't realise I was swimming when I crossed
that river? They say (yes, the proverbial 'they') that things look much harder
when you stare are confronted by them as compared to when you actually overcome
them later. But have they ever looked at the vice versa bit? Have they noticed
that often something that has been done, is actually so impossible that it
could not have been imagined, had it not actually been done?
Stepping out of a spiral may apparently unleash an
unnecessary profusion of ungarnished thoughts.
