Everything is going backward in life; with every one forward
step I move 5 steps backwards. It’s been quite some time since things stopped
going in favourable direction for me, future seems blurred and life is quite
dull these days, have stopped dreaming good for the future because things will
always be exactly opposite to what I want them to be. It’s been ages since I last saw
the sunshine in my life, I guess nights loves me more. The question which comes in
my mind for which I don’t have an apt answer is even if the I get what I want, will it make
me happy now?? and only answer I can
possibly think off is I don’t think things what I want carries happiness with it anymore, even
there won’t be any satisfaction, relief is all I will get.
I Just realised, life
which always looked easy was never been easy for me, before anything previous
settles down, something not so good happens and take me all the way back to
square one from where I started. Have broken all the resistance zone in life in
terms of going backwards, I just keep on going backward and falling deeper and
deeper.
Hope some magic happens and life becomes pleasant, at least
for some time. Waiting for the sun to shine and I hope to wake up soon with sun
shine stoking my face making things around me as bright as they could be.
I hope…..
